I have been working very intensely on #TSWWM for the last five weeks or so. The swedish original will be released first, which will happen in about a month. It’s not much left to do with it, aside from marketing it as well as I can. The english translation still needs some work, but it also does require waiting. And I’m not good at waiting.
The lack of patience combined with a certain restlessness is quite annoying, since I want to reach the high point of this process. I also feel quite empty now that most of the writing and editing process is done. I have been working on this very intensely for five weeks and three days, to distract myself from the fact that I lost my precious dog, Ella.
I am now at a point where I keep rolling my thumbs wondering what the hell I’m supposed to do now. I still have at least three ideas for future books, but I’m not sure of where to start. If I even should start, considering #TSWWM hasn’t even been released yet.
This is a very annoying place to be at. I’ll get out of it – eventually. I suppose things inside my head needs to fall into place before I can move on. Until then, I guess I’ll just have to live with the lack of patience, the restlessness and let my brain do its work and reveal itself when it’s done.
As for what’s done so far, I have begun on two ideas – just trying to find the way to express myself through words. Both of the ideas are completely different from #TSWWM.
Actually, I can’t wait to get out of this empty feeling. Am I the only one feeling like this? I find it disturbing, although I understand how and why it happens. At least I think so. Letting go of a project so consuming as this, both in matter of time and emotional release, does provide room for emptiness.