the Self which wasn't mine | by Sonya Malinka Persson | releases in september 2019


A story about a child struggling to find her own sense of self.


Experience her journey through memories portrayed by visual poetry.


Releases in september 2019.




I am new at this whole thing with e-books. I’ve never done this before in my life. Well, at least not when it comes to having to choose between different formats for my e-book. I always used the pdf-format and that has worked just fine for me. But now, there’s a whole new world of ways to think  around the concept of e-books and how to read them.

From what little research I have managed to do so far, I find that I am such an extreme novice at the epub-format. I’ve never heard of it before, and I am most certainly not sure of how to use it. When I do layout, I use Indesign which is a program I absolutely adore (as I do with all Adobe programs). From Indesign, I can save a project as epub. But when I open it in any of the epub-readers I’ve tried so far, it looks like shit.

Seriously, what the fuck!?

So, after some thinking and discussing with a friend, I decided that the Self which wasn’t mine, will be published as a pdf. There are two main reasons for this; I know the format, and with it, I can control the layout. Because for this specific project, the layout is imperative for the perception of, and understanding the content of the book.

Since I am so new at this, there are a few things I’m not sure if it is even possible. Has anyone reading this ever used to publish something? What happens when you upload something there, is that all of a sudden it sounds like flipping a page in a book, and you get the funny corners when you do that. Oh, and also, the center of the book is also shadowed, so it looks like it actually is a book just there, on the screen. I think it’s beautiful.

This is something that I miss, both in the pdf-format, and in this epub-format I don’t know much about (yet!).

So if anyone reading this just happens to work with developing software for the production of both pdf and epub, please integrate the ability to make the project actually look like a book. And let us turn page with a little flick, and the corner looking like it flips over. That would be awesome.



Sonya Malinka Persson | portrait in black/white

Sonya Malinka Persson
Västerås, Sweden

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